Gratitude

To each and every person taking time out of their day to log miles for me, thank you. To see a community come together for a common goal is something so powerful and inspiring it has left me speechless on multiple occasions. Individuals I have never even met have connected with me because they read my goal, my mission, and wanted to become a part of it. Sports teams and coaches, gyms, cycling groups, friends, family, and strangers have pulled together to accomplish what I started, but could not finish alone. My hat goes off to you all. I’ve come to the realization that this was how things were supposed to end all along. Suicide awareness can not and will not be reduced by a single person alone. It takes a movement such as this to spark the proper momentum for a positive and everlasting change.

For those who have been following my journey I have an update for you. Initially I was said to have a radial head fracture. This type of break didn’t require casting, which was the main reason I figured I could press forward and finish what I had begun. My follow up appointment with the Ortho added a wrist fracture to the mix, which was when I made the call to stop. I no longer had mobility of my wrist or thumb due to the beautiful piece of blue fiberglass they so kindly placed me in. The follow up to the follow up has added yet another bump in the road. Now they have found a break in the distal end of the humerus along with a bone fragment in my elbow joint, which has put a hault in my full range of motion. Fingers crossed nothing else decided to explode and spontaneously combust upon impact. Apparently 27 is not my year

With this, however, I’ve realized multiple things. Life is fragile, unpredictable, and a blessing we often take for granted. In a short moment your world can literally be flipped upside down, flung through the air, and slammed on to the pavement. Often times this occurs with little to no control of your own. With everything happening in the world today causing heartache, devastation, and sheer chaos, my situation is very minimal in comparison. However the outlook can be viewed in a similar fashion.
1. Although I am itching to get on my bike and cannot, at least I have a bike to ride.
2. My arm is badly broken, but it will one day function properly again (hopefully)
3. My test results have not been the ones I’ve desired, but at least I have the luxury to get them done ensuring everything is alright, medically.
4. I had to step down from something I’ve started and have been unable to finish, but at least I had the ability and immense amount of support to initially begin.
5. In my times of struggle physically, mentally, and emotionally there has been someone to selflessly help me back up despite what they may be going through. Not just with this, but with everything
6. Unlike many of our fellow Americans in this current time, I have a home to go to at night, water to drink, and food to consume.
7. Every moment placed in your life is a learning experience.
8. Appreciate each and every moment in your life, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem.

It’s not about the things that happen in our lives we may not enjoy because that’s a daily occurrence. It’s about how we react to those situations with our heads held high and our spirits intact. For me this has been a testing time, although I may not always show it. I want you to keep this in mind though. Be humbled in knowing that there is always someone struggling with something much more painful, more devastating, and far more terrible. So yes you may be broken, but someone out there needs you to be their inspiration and motivation to get them through to the next day. Love your neighbor, your family, your friends. Be a pleasant human to all of those around you. Especially important to those you’re meeting for the first time. Don’t not miss a single opportunity to express to those around you how you feel. Gear your life and guide your life to be one lived with compassion, grace, and honesty. It’s okay to be broken, but keep your mind open to the situations others are also encountering. Again, I love you all, appreciate you all, and you’re important to me. Also, never take your dominant hand for granted again. Typing with your left hand, and left hand alone, is a challenge.

Things I’ve Learned So Far.

 

Feet are best utilized when firmly planted on the ground.
Leave the flying actions for winged objects and creatures.
The state of Ohio has some awesome bike paths (also hospitals)
Amish children are the cutest little things on the face of this planet. Especially when they’re cheering for you.
Farm animals, mainly cows, do not like cyclists near their property and will in fact charge.
I have the best support group on the planet.
Peas are best consumed in solid form, or not at all. Preferably not at all.
Things can always be worse. They also usually get worse before they get better.
Parents, even if they aren’t yours, can somehow read you.
Bike paths are for making friends and going fast.
People are willing to help you succeed if you let them.
Do not, under any circumstances, think you can ride your bike near Ohio states stadium on game day. It’s mad house. #gobills.
Dogs, although they look friendly, will no doubt chase you.
People find their way into your life when you need them the most.
Calcium consumption is not overrated.
Do not miss an opportunity to say thank you.
Always assure your loved ones you care for them.
Challenges are placed in your life to measure growth, not defeat.
No challenge is ever too large if you remain positive and optimistic.
It’s okay to ask for help.
Always be specific, especially when giving directions.
Railroad tracks are for trains, not bikes.

 

Although my part of the mission is complete, it’s still not over. People are stepping up to finish the remaining miles I could not. What better way to display the saying “you’re not alone”, than to act upon it. Suicide prevention is not a job for one person, which has become more concrete now than ever before. Maybe this was how it was supposed to be all along. In my moments of weakness others have become more than willing to step up for me. Isn’t that what this is all about? Together this will be accomplished! Thanks to you!

Guest Blog!

I asked one of my college friends to write a little bit about what suicide meant to her and how it made her feel. Below is what she wrote to me in regards to that. She did okay me to share her name, so please read what Megan Bush had to day. Raise awareness through talking, sharing, and asking the tough questions. Sometimes that may be exactly what it takes to help somebody through a tough situation. Love you guys, and I can not say thank you enough for all of the support!

 

“The one thing that bothers me the most is when others say that who people commit suicide and those who suffer from depression are weak. What people don’t see is that those who suffer from depression or suicidal thoughts are fighting their own demons. Looking back on Chester Bennington’s death, it really hit home for me. He may have not been a relative or someone close to me personally but he was certainly a voice of my generation. The only way you’ll ever hear his voice is if you listen to any of Linkin Park’s music or an old interview of the band. Just think how hard it must be if it was someone close to you personally. You’d never see or hear that person again. You’d rely on old photographs and home videos to recall all the good moments in time.

I’ve felt just as heartbroken when X Japan’s member’s Hide and Taiji passed away. Both members committed suicide but out of the two, Hide’s death caused hundreds of people to gather at his funeral and even two fans attempted suicide that same day due to being grief stricken. Yoshiki, the drummer and leader of the group, mentioned in the “We Are X” documentary that these deaths and even his own father’s at a young age really pulled at his heartstrings. If you ever get the chance to listen to X Japan’s music, especially the song Jade, the emotions are all there. The pain that we feel after a loved one has passed can be intolerable but, it doesn’t mean we have to live with the constant sadness or let the feelings consume us until the simplest things we can no longer do. By keeping their memories alive and living to make a better future for ourselves, we can help positively influence other’s lives by raising suicide awareness.

When I lost my friend in a car accident a few years ago, it was almost unheard of for me. How I found out was looking through my Facebook noticing mutual friends were posting all about the recent death of our high school friend. It was sudden and unexpected. I remember breaking down into tears wanting the news to be fake but, this was reality. My friend was dead all because a truck driver wasn’t paying attention to the road. It was tough for me to go to school and work for a few days still trying to wrap my head around the fact my friend had passed. I can only imagine that’s what the family and friend’s of people who have taken their own lives. But at the funeral, it was the strangest reunion of meeting friend I haven’t seen in years. We talked for hours talking about the good old days of middle school and high school while laughing to mask the pain we were all feeling at the time. Knowing I wasn’t the only one feeling painfully upset about the whole ordeal gave me some piece of mind. It was pleasant to know we were all there supporting each other and our deceased friend’s parents.

In reality, I think it’s important to try and support those close to you suffering from any sort of mental or emotional issues. Everyone has their own inner demons but it also doesn’t mean everyone fully understands. Something may impact someone else in a much bigger way than it may affect you personally. Rather than bringing each other down, helping each other could save the lives of many especially at schools with all the bullying. In respect of Chester Bennington, here’s a quote from him; “You can’t be afraid of people willing to hurt you, cause if you fear life, then you will never live.”

-Megan Bush

I love you, I appreciate you, and you are important

Today I am better off than I once was, but not as well off as I will one day be. These words I have written can be taken a few different ways.

We always search for an end, a conclusion, set a goal, but should we settle at that. For the end marks the finish, or so they say, but why not look beyond that to the remarkable future. To further growth. We spend too much time focusing on something thinking it’s exactly what we want, what we need, and for what exactly? Approval of others. What happened to self satisfaction. Knowing you’re in the right place, at the right time, doing exactly what you need to be doing. We strive for instant gratification. Relationships are precious. Emotions have been lost in social standings and approval of others that we no longer grow together. We no longer socialize in the matter in which people before us once did.

Challenge yourself to do that. Tuck your phones away for a day and see how much that small gesture changes your attitude, your friendships, and your conversations with others. We lost the will to care for the real individuals in our lives because they don’t always tell us what we want to hear. Raw facts can be painful, but often times that is exactly what we need. Rejoice in this day you’ve been given. Tell a random stranger, or even someone you know something positive about them that you enjoy. See how a simple compliment can lead to a smile, and that alone can slowly change the world. Stop focusing so much on the end result that you lose yourself along the way. Tell yourself that today you are better off than you were yesterday – because potentially you have grown, learned from mistakes, met new people etc. Then realize you are not as well off as you will one day be. Think about it. Take today and become a better version of yourself.

1. Challenge your comfort zone

2. Always show gratitude when and where it’s due

3. When speaking to someone, truly be present in the conversation

4. Don’t view each situation as “how can I benefit from this,” but rather, “how can this benefit others”

5. Your opinion isn’t always the correct one

6. Speak from your heart and say what you mean. Don’t tip toe around the truth

7. It’s okay to need time alone. In fact, learn to love times of solitude and personal growth

8. Raise tomorrow’s generation to be a better version than our own

9. The most valuable thing you can give somebody is your time

10. Stop looking for happiness in others, that comes from within

11. Take time out of your day to tell someone you love them, you appreciate them, and that they are important.

 

Onward 🚲